my season of my life

      "Hey! Weng, I need your help! You know what? Today my friends get beating from ABC girls, and next Monday, we will have a fight again. Do you want to come with us?"  "Yes, sure." I called all the friends I get and have the same conversation like that again and again. The day is coming very soon, you can't tell how spectacular view it is! Almost 40 people walk together with us and we stand at there waiting for those people who beat my friend. A very commodious place because of us, it look very hustle. Soon, they are coming and have a noisy quarrel and fight. Our side have 10 girls, but they only have 5 people. I fight with the fattest girl of them and I get a lot of scratch mark on my face from her finger nail. My friend's long finger nail breaks off and blood comes out. The most terrible scene is when someone use the sharp instrument to beat a girl's head and the blood are permeating her face! At that time, don't matter what we doing right now, all the people are stop their acting and looking for the girl who get beating on head. I don't remember how we left there, but I can't forget her face and her eyes with injured. I try to get the answer from myself why we use violence to settle up a dispute. Does it work? I think the answer is no. It is a milestone of my life and it affects my thinking a lot. I change my way of thinking, acting and my disposition.

      After that happen, if my friends have quarrel with other people, I will ask them "Even you fight them and beat them, Are you think the problem will solve? or you will be so happy?" We are not a kid, don't just play around and get fight again and again. I learn to be lenient in judging others. In china, we have an old saying: Men are not saints, how can they by free from faults? So, why we just use a wrong way to treat them? When my mother raise her voice to me, before I will raise the voice to her too. But, right now I will say come down your voice and tell me what mistake I make? Own up when I have made a mistake. When we grow up, we need to know how to solve a lot problem or argument in our life.

      My Dad told me that when you grow up, you must answer for your actions. Before I would like to skip class and go out with my friend. But right now I know I need to start to plan my further and I can't just always play.

         “I hope you can grow up, don’t just always go out with you friends. Can you study more harder?”  That come out from my mom’s mouth when she crying. Before we get a rich life in china, but my parent still want to move to American because of us. They want our can get a higher education and a new life. In china, even you are graduate form collage. You still difficult to found a job. My parent came to here and work hard, but I and my brother just always play computer or go out. My aunt to laugh at her say :“ you don’t how to teach your kids to learning something? I see them always play.” When her came back home, I see her eyes turn red and tears on the face. At that time, I really dislike myself. What mistake I do? Never thinking about how my mom’s feeling! When she told me to study, I always raise my voice curse her and don’t want to listen to her. Her eyes have a kind of sad that I never understand. Try and Try, I start to change myself because of my mom, my family, my life. After school, I will go to my tutor’s there study English and finish my homework. Every night when I come back home I will clean the house and helping my do some housework. My English teacher Mr. Romero told me and my classmate to read a really good story, I discover that the girl names Lizabeth growing up have a same reason with me. The story call < Maygold >, this title may just a symbol of the conviction. She grow up because his father are crying and saying that he don’t have job and he can’t give the kids a good life. When she hear that and she know that she need to grow up and she is already are a human now! A human can understand the parent’s thinking just like I do right now.

       When I just a kids and I hope can grow up soon. The reason why is I want to watch TV until 12PM like my mon always do and I don’t need to go to school. But when I start to growing up, get a lot problem in my life, answer my action of myself, change the way of my thinking. I feel very tried and miss my childhood. We don’t need to think about the further, don’t need to think about the money, don’t need to think about how to solve family and friend’s problem. But I choose to grow up to help my family also help my further too. It is time to grow up and I can’t just lie for myself to be a child and doing nothing. I am ready to take the collage form my further! Because I am grow up now! Hurry up! You can do it too.

  In China we have an old saying: A dutiful son is made by a stick to 
hit him. I still remember after my mom went to the school parents 
meeting. My sister and I would always hide some place in our house, or 
go to sleep early, because we knew that if we waited for her to come home, 
she will use the coat hanger to beat us and we will be covered with 
scars, big and small. Sometimes even when I am already asleep, she will still yell 
at me to wake up, to ask me why I didn’t do some homework, and she will start to 
beat me. Sometimes she will take my textbooks from my school bag and 
put it into the trashcan. I just cry and cry, again and again. 
What else can I do? In my heart, I feel that my mom 
cares more about my grades than she does about me. When I read the poem "The 
Whipping" written by Robert Hayden, it evoked memories of my childhood. Every word of the poem attacked my heart.  A kind of sadness or terror 
came over my heart and spread through my body. Every 
word in this poem is very clear and easy for me to understand. 
 
     The reason I was interested in this poem is because I enjoyed the 
vocabulary. "The Whipping” uses easy words to describe things, and 
the meaning is very clear. In the opening of the poem "The old woman across the 
way is whipping the boy again…” It may have some words that I will find in the SAT test, and I can get help from the dictionary. This poem taught me some new words. 
 
      I feel very sad when I read this "Words could bring, the 
face that I no longer know or loved…” After the parents beat the child, 
they may relax, and not be angry any more, but how about the child?  Parents 
not only hurt their body, they also hurt the child's feelings!  The child may not 
smile anymore, or be happy everyday. Some of them may hate their 
parents. After they grow up, they may leave the parents alone, and never 
come back! How does the child think of the parents? The parents will leave a gloom 
over the child’s life for all time. 
 
    "The Whipping" really shows the childhood of some children and how 
family violence has been so commonplace in society. I still remember 
my mother telling me that one time after she beat me. I kept crying and later 
fell asleep, and she sat next to my bed. When she saw the scars on my body, she began to cry. I know the parents love their children, but why did they choose 
this way to solve those problems? This is a problem in many families. The parents always think that if the kids do anything bad, they need to get a beating so they won't do it again. Yes – the kids may not do it again, to avoid getting a beating, but how does a child then think of the parent? Perhaps the parents are right, but when you beat the children, it is wrong. The children may not do it again because they are afraid of getting a beating, even when they think what they did was not wrong! 
 
    Would you like to have a happy family and nice parents, or would you like 
your family to always have violence? This poem has the same problem too. 
Why don't the parents think about sitting down with the kids and talk to them about behavior and rules? A family is made up of all members, so we should all have a say in what goes on. Try to talk to the children and become 
involved in their life and their thinking! Be their friends, not just a demanding parent with no sympathy! "The Whipping" is an excellent poem. There are some words I think will be on the SAT test, and can help me learn some new words. Some parts of the poem make me feel sad and about to cry. It shows how many families have problems in our society.

Reflection on my NHD Process

The NHD are due last month. I think I and  hong do the Exhibit board is a lot better than last year.

I learn a lot information about our topic Shing-shen chern. We try to get more information about him, so we research on the internet and book. because our English is not good. we read the information again and again. after we understand it. we try to use our own word to rewrite it. it is hard for us to rewrite those information because is higher English level. we can not really understand the English information , so we need to research chinese website to read the chinese first and read the english information too. thought I know this person. I really like what he discover is a really fun theory. You can use that to go thought the time.

I think the most problem we get is the language and the theory which he discover. His theory is the higher geometry level. It use a lot SAT word to describe it, if you can read it. but you can not understand the theory. it really hard. Even I ask some teacher but they don't know it too. we cannot use our own word to explain the  theory. so, we put the equation on our board.It hard for us. but we try it. I feel very happy that we can finish this project.